Sabotage

i wish you could understand,
i wish I could understand.
i wish you turned back
i was right there,
waiting for you
waiting for you to run back to me
waiting for you to embrace me with your warmth

i was right there
waiting for you to realize how much you mean to me
i was right there waiting for you to smile back at me.

All these days, i was waiting
waiting for you.
a long pauseless longing
In the sunshine, in the rain ,
in the piercing snow.
i was waiting for you.

and as today's sun shone,
i looked up once again,
towards that almighty,
who gifted me a wait of a lifetime in this short life.
i shut my eyes as i drowned the pain and soaked myself with my own tears.
my trembling lips reluctantly confessed
its all so wrong...
waiting for you was wrong
very wrong
shuddered away as i
waited for my heart to gain back its beat
i shall pray to god...pray for your well being
wherever you are
keep smiling!